I never thought choices could be so hard. I always stood in the back, watching my friends go through such difficult decisions that it would choose their next path in life. They've cried, laughed, and yelled in frustration. They've told me what they're going through, and I would give my advice to the best of my ability. Never once did I even think to realize that I would be put in the same situation. Well, look where I am now.

Two guys who are so important to me are making me choose, to choose between them. One of them is already my boyfriend, the other is not. One of them I can tell everything to, without worrying what they think of me, the other I'm not so sure about. They boy who is not my boyfriend, the one I can tell everything to, suddenly just walked out of my life, and it was okay, for the time being. He already had a girlfriend and when I saw them at homecoming, I could handle it. They left and then I saw Josh, one of my friends that I've known for a year. We danced, we talked, and he just suddenly asked me to be his girlfriend when we were away from the skanks and jocks blanketed the dance floor. He's liked me since last year, and I think I liked him since then, too. And now here we are, a little more than a month we've been together, and I couldn't be happier.

Then I received a phone call, it was Dillion. He wanted to hang out and without even thinking, I agreed. We went out to eat, we had some great, laughing moments. We went to Walmart, just messing around in the aisles and smiling the entire time. To top it all off, we went to the park, the same one where we hung out the second day we knew each other. He told me he and his girlfriend broke up and looked at me we such a serious tint in his eyes, and I knew that he wanted to be with me. When we were up there on the slide, I just wanted to kiss him right there, but then an image of Josh unleashed in my mind and I just stared the other way as quickly as possible and stared at the distant starry sky. Have my feelings that I thought I locked away suddenly come back?

I wanted to tell Josh exactly what happened, EVERYTHING. As soon as I told him that Dillion has feelings for me, I stopped myself from telling him that I also liked Dillion. Why I couldn't I tell him? I'm deffinately not cheating on him... right? They now hate each other, even though they have never met. I am being pulled by two differant thin strings. They are both being close to tearing and the pressure on my wrist will be gone once I choose which one to propel to. That string will be undamaged, while the other is left ripped in two. I don't want to hurt anymore, and I don't want either one of them to hurt either.

One boy I need so badly, but the other I want more than anything.

What am I supposed to do...?